大四经济生日记之 拿生命捍卫你的时间

随笔记录一下,以后整理也供往后的学弟学妹们参考,嘿嘿嘿。 我不知道你生命里有没有过一种感觉,就是那种茅塞顿开、忽然之间世界变不同的感觉。高中时候我上了人生以来的第一堂经济课就有那种感觉。突然世界有了一种全新且有说服力的解释,充斥着被理智掌握的可能。这对一个控制欲极强的人而言太有吸引力了。高中以后诸多原因我也没急着上大学,倒是到处闲晃跟自个儿阅读了经济方面的一些书籍(近年很流行行为经济学方面的书),反正就是越来越喜欢这学科,也越来越贯彻。

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目光

一颗森林里的树倒下了,没有人听到它倒下的声音,此后不会有任何人看到它的遗骸,那么,这棵树存在过么? 兴许对人类而言,一直到有人看到为止,我们并不真正地存在着。一直到有人能听明我们一言一语的意义为止,我们并不能真正地诉说。一直到被人爱着为止,我们不算是完全活着。(“Perhaps it is true that we do not really exist until there is someone there to see us existing, we cannot properly speak until there is someone who can understand what we are saying in essence, we are not wholly alive until we are loved.”) 我不是说我们得在别人的目光里活着,我不是说我们得为了别人的目光鞠躬尽瘁;别人的目光都搀杂了太多的东西,注意力不是太分散就是太短暂。我只是觉得很多时候,我们都对镜子里的那个人太过残忍。

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旅行是为了邂逅停留的理由之 经小藏獒狠咬出血所引起的哲思

死掉没什么大不了的 生命本就无常,给狗咬了以后更是常常恍惚间就觉得自己好像是个活生生的死人。因为医生都说了,疫苗打了不代表100%不会发病,总是有个概率的隐忧。而事发后我在脑里想象着*我*作而为人的逝去、意识的终结时理智上是觉得没什么大不了的,反正人迟早也是一死。恍惚间有种和加缪笔下的局外人重叠的感觉。存在主义说存在先于本质 (existence precedes essence),我爱说爱之作为人类所有意义的终极 (Love is the ultimate and the highest goal to which man can aspire. – Victor Frankl),是先验 (a priori) 的。爱成了信仰,才有了赋一切予以价值的可能。爱生命却又觉得死了也没什么大不了的,点解!?

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旅行是为了邂逅停留的理由之 最后的晚餐

你联系不到你的朋友们之后,我的也恰恰失踪;你说这一切会不会就是天意?嘿嘿。 而我一口气喝完了咖啡以后,却咽不下不舍。不舍得见了面之后是离别,离别之后是失去联络。一顿晚餐人均吃掉了大约我月薪的六分之一,更让我所剩不多的旅游经费元气大伤。是不是我们学经济的都喜欢竭尽所能地量化一切人事物,仿佛这样它的重要与否、以及程度才能有个究竟。究竟你在我心上独占一隅有多大的田地,究竟这田地能不能从荒芜到华丽,究竟我还该灌溉多少情绪;枉论我能不能。因为爱是一种本能,没得选择。理智觉得很莫名其妙,理智会怕受伤、理智想自保,然而…爱就对了。

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Home I’ll never be.

Being away from home for so long – when first I realised my use of the word “home” – that was when it hit me that Singapore had come to mean so. Then I wonder again, about the question on my mind when I left last December: I am missing this place and my heart feels heavy already, why then do I do this? Why is it possible to feel so intensely and so little, to…

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象郡边陲人回燕国之 吾心不安

在北京好长一段时间我倍感困扰,尽管生活一切除了我不怎么在乎的空气质量之外都很美好。我享受一个人的自由,我活得一如既往地毫无责任而自在逍遥。可是我闷,真心闷。明明有很多事情做,明明时间都排得满满的,却总是日愈烦躁、我心不安。 我很困扰,因为我是一个很珍惜时间的经济门生。一生有限;如若不时刻感觉时间是过得充实的,如果每个选择没把“效用”最大化成就帕累托最优,我会觉得自己是个浪费的罪人,无颜面对日后可能的子孙哇。

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那些女孩之 提醒着我人性的良心和美有着密不可分的关系

常常会发生类似这样的状况:学校负责人听闻我住在一旅途上认识的女生家,孰问:安全吗?同学们知道我和一群北漂住在一块儿,利马疑惑:你不怕吗?而让我费思的有两码子事: 首先,老娘看起来像是那么没有安全意识的人吗!?天晓得我有多么怕死多么热爱自己的生命。

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Dear Daisy, on the fault in our stars.

Dear diary, please let me call you Daisy. I like 2 syllable names and it sounds rather close to your identity (as a diary). You may call me Ernie – Everyone calls me Ernie – What’s started off as a convenient habit has evolved into a matter of convention and I rather like the idea of how disposable an English name is? I rather fancy the thought of calling yourself by a name that is…

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Ernie Productions presents… The Hungry Economics of Witch Killings

The question is this: Why do families suddenly realise that a grandmother whom they had been living with is actually a witch? Indeed, why do such realisations typically hit when food is in short supply? What is the link/similarity between this and the witch trials of renaissance Europe?… Do superstition and discrimination against women explain it all? When we were instructed to make an audio slideshow on the topic of “hunger”, the economics major that…

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The Hungry Economics of Witch Killings

Synopsis: “The economics of poverty is often poor economics,” so said Esther Duflo, an economist widely touted to be a budding Nobel prize contender. Motivated by a love of my favourite science and a desire to tell stories better, this video of <4 minutes attempts to weave 61 pages of research material into a tale of food shortage and murder intrigue – of unconventional wisdom offered by the economical perspective. While not every single detail…

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